Along came a birdie...

So this whole blog has been put on hold. Time management is harder than it looks especially when time is allocated for stressing out. Ops. Back to reality. Currently it is the middle of summer and I'm unemployed, boyfriendless, roomless and living in full renovation mode for the last month, with no plans for the future . Oh boy, can life become anymore twisted? In truth yes yes it can, so I'm not going to jinx and I just say my grace like a good little girl. But am I missing the picture? Do all things happen for a reason and if so I want to see this big book of reasons and speak to the man who wrote it. After a devastating break up I spent weeks holding on to my sides like I was going to fall apart any minute. It hurt to eat, walk, run and even sleep, all that could be done was think and even that was not enough. Thoughts are dangerous especially ones that are reminiscent of happier days. I felt like a truck ran me over and then decided to back up just to do it again. And then after donning my running shoes and my sports bra, I headed straight into the stormy weather where I met a little birdie that told me it was all going to be okay. My room was going to get fixed so that I wouldn't have to live out of a box, my unemployment statues was going to change and as for my broken heart it would keep beating, a little more retarded than before but for now it would do because that's all I really have. Its funny cause this bird isn't really a person but it is a bird that lives in my neighbourhood now, I think it is some sort of lost pet but I haven't seen posters looking for it so I assume no one is really missing it. Lucky for me. I see it every time a go running, what a treat!!! And its not like the bird speaks but its like one of those unspoken signs that let you know you're going to be okay. So each day my smile gets bigger and my spirits lighten and as for my problems? Ive made a list of the immediate ones that I tackle daily and slowly they seem to melt away. I have been doing the things that are beneficial for my souls happiness, such as taking Hip-hop in stilettos at Dance Corps down town and playing the guitar and hopefully tomorrow baking brownies which is incredible because even though I am an excellent cook, my baking skills are atrocious. Keep your fingers crossed for the brownies. Anyhow Ive acquired new hobbies and new insight which will be shared through out my discovery process. So I leave you with this quote....

Begin doing what you want to do now. We are not living in eternity. We have only this moment sparkling like a star in our hand - and melting like a snowflake. -- M.B. Ray ♥